How I'm feeling now...

I hate her...

My wonderful kids Pt 2

My wonderful kids.

Jesus is in charge....

One of the biggest things that I struggle with is in the area of trust. Trust in God. For such a long time in my life I have always done things my wife and never done them the way Christ has wanted me to do them.....I guess that is Pride, no, not I guess, it is pride. So now with my wife and I going through a divorce/separation, and the fact that I'm getting documents prepared for bankruptcy, basically losing everything that I have and trusting God is really hard, but.....but I know that God is faithful in everything and I have to trust that He has my best interest in hand. I talk to my kids almost everyday and they need their dad by them, but I need them more. They have always been by my side and then "she" moved to Cleveland with them and its like the air was taken from me. Right now I am listening to Hillsong ~ Mighty to Save.....and they are singing that.... He can move the mountains. I believe that He can do that....even if it means getting my heart right or getting "us" back together, but like I said in the title: Jesus is in charge and that is where I have to trust in Him.

Thanksgiving weekend with my kids...

Hi there, I'm David. I have four beautiful kids and they are my life. I am currently going through a divorce and my kids are in Cleveland and I currently live in the Lexington, Ky area. So, every other weekend, I get to spend time with my kids. This past week, I picked my kids up in Medina, Ohio and we spent time laughing, having fun, and enjoying our time at a local hotel. I met "her" at the Hampton Inn around 8 pm and we exchanged the kids....(Oh...I will do another post on how "she" always is sooo condescending toward me, and how she is very critical, mean, nasty and can always dish it, but you can never dish it back, because its mean.....isn't that the pot calling the kettle black? Anyway...) We checked into the hotel and changed into our bathing suits and headed to the heated pool and whirlpool.....we had a blast!! Then we went upstairs and ordered pizza and sat on the bed until 12:30 am watching Disney and then went to bed. We got up the next morning, took showers and headed to Indianapolis for a Big Thanksgiving Feast with my parents, brother, mammaw, sister and her family. It was a long drive, we left around 10 and got there around 3. We had a very good time...the kids had a blast playing with their cousins, but mostly they had a good time with their dad.....believe me, I had the better time.....We both need each other.....After eating dinner we watched some movies and then went to a play park that was huge. My brother-in-law and I took the kids and let the kids wear themselves out playing on the equipment. I spent most of my time playing with the one who has me totally wrapped around her pinkie...Allison. She is four and is so precious. We came back and watched Wall-E and played Guitar Hero. On Friday, we got up and got ready and went and did a little shopping. We went to 1/2 price books and I got the kids some reading books and then went to a baseball card shop and bought Andrew some baseball cards. Later on Friday night we went to Kentucky. We got in around 10 and the kids were soooo excited to finally "be home". They do not like Cleveland and they let me know....We finally went to bed and did our devotions and we all got into my king size bed. My son, Andrew, got up around 7:30 and I told him to lie back in bed because it was still early. So, we got up around 8 and watched some cartoons and then headed to McD's for some breakfast. After breakfast we headed to Wal-mart because I needed to get some things and I wanted to get Allison some clothes because everytime Suzie sends her clothes with her, they are shaggy and nappy clothes. So I bought them all some new clothes, even if it was Wal-mart, it made them feel special. We came back and played outside and visited with some very special neighbors. After playing , we came in and got ready to take the kids back to "her". Before we left, one of my twins, well all of them, but mainly Caitlyn, was crying and screaming so hard that as we were leaving she was pulling on the couch and screaming that she didn't want to go....she wiggled and was twisted her way around so I couldn't "get her."....She was truly pititful....and I felt so helpless. Caitlyn and Caroline both cried as we left the house and cried about an hr before we got to Medina. After I dropped the kids off....Suzie never said Thank you for driving so far....it was only an 1.5 hr for her, but 6 for me....its ok.....I just have to have the "mind of Christ"......to not be selfish, think about the kids, to be selfless.......